What I Worship

I give lip service to this whole God thing

Coming in here and praying and praising

Lifting up holy hands, bending holy knees,

while looking at my holy watch

But this isn’t what I really worship

If you want to see my worship

Don’t stand next to me here in the place

Don’t look at my words and my prayers

And all of my learned motions that come

Not from my heart, but from what I have seen others do

Don’t look at the way I speak, parrot like, the words I hear others say

If you want to know what I really worship

Walk with me

Follow me

Live with me

Crawl into my head and see where my thoughts go

Go through the days and weeks of my life with me

And see what I worship not by what I say

But by how I live.

You wanna know what I worship

I worship food

In ways that are far from natural

I think about it most of the day

Chicken, pizza, cheeseburgers, steak and cheese sandwiches,

Hot wings, lasagna, chicken parmesan from Pravino’s, mustard on everything, fast food, good food, greasy spoon food, a hot-dog from hills on a round bun, turkey and dressing, waffle fries, sushi, Sun-drop

Mmm Sun-Drop

O great Sun god I bow to your caffeinate greatness

You wanna know what I worship

I worship gadgets

If it blinks and has a power cord I will sing its praise

I will bring it offerings of money and time

O Lord Laptop, when I in awesome wonder

Consider all your 15 inch display

Your wireless net, your cd-rom for burning

I love your power for all the games I play

Then sings my soul, my laptop, god to the

How Great thou art, How great thou art

You wanna know what I worship

I worship other people

I may not walk up to you and bow to you

I don’t sacrifice live chickens at your feet

But I do worship you

Putting my feelings of self-worth,

of security,

of am I good enough,

of am I smart enough, cute enough, effective enough

In your hands

Spending most of my time trying to find new ways for you to like me

New ways to make sure that you don’t leave me

Run from me

Find someone cooler

New ways to make sure you don’t

Find someone more fun
You wanna know what I worship?

When you push past everything else

When you stop believing the lies

that even I believe

When you tear off the curtain and show the wizard

For who he really is

When you add up all of the

Time spent

And thoughts spent

And emotions spent

And energy spent

And talents spent

You find the throne of my worship

And on the throne

Sits me

You wanna know what I worship?

I worship me

and I don’t want to do it anymore.